settle, little one.

You ever realize the things that you are living with things are broken?

For instance, for the past three years, I have had little to no light in my kitchen, the fixture has been broken and has worked a little bit here and there.

Yes-I have been cooking in the dark.

The passenger side mirror in my car FELL off in 2005, and I have never replaced it.

My windshield wipers scrape my window at each pass, and the timer doesn't work, if i turn them on, they go nuts. Or I have to turn them on and off, on and off, on and off.

My shoes don't fit, I have also had a broken toe since 2005, it is still black and blue.

I have no couch.

Last week, I had my kitchen light replaced. It was like my whole life had changed. How had I been living with out it?

I finally was given a couch. A place to sit? wow. What a concept.

Today someone pointed out that I have no mirror and I realized how accustomed I had come to living with certain things completely messed up.

How I had learned to settle with less than okay things. Making my dinner in the dark, or sitting on a cold wooden chair while watching a movie... I am worth so much more than this.

so?

Today I wrapped gifts, and watched Home Alone and lit all the candles in my apartment.

It was such a sweet environment, and the air seemed to linger and float.

It was so peaceful, like time stood still all day.

Made my mind wander and find an easy resting place for a few hours.

Before my peaceful time at home, I made a run to the post office.

Bad idea.

It is the 20th of December, so everyone was running around trying to mail off some last minute gifts.

I am a visual person and I kept picturing scenes from the Grinch, and a Christmas story in my head. Like people bustling about carrying 20 billion bags of gifts.

It seems like everyone walks around with their heads in the clouds.

I sort of love it though.

New Chapter.

Beware: being dramatic follows.

So basically, I just finished my BA.

Although this should be a huge deal, and I should be celebrating, I feel pretty numb to it.

I haven't felt excited at all.

It's really strange. I feel more overwhelmed now, than I ever have and I feel just.... bleh.

Maybe its the weather?

Maybe its all the circumstances that I am dealing with?

Maybe its just... me?

Don't know what it is...

I have also been feeling just... off.

I don't like it.

I feel like I am stuck in quick sand, but while I am dangling in the drying cement, I'm not struggling to get out.

Tomorrow is a new day, and tomorrow is the beginning of a new chapter in my life.

I am not going to let this lull carry on.

Yummy Holiday Iced Coffee

So as some of you know, I love iced coffee.

I started making this every once in awhile about a month ago because I wanted a spicy holiday treat.

Feel free to alter the size of the recipe, but no matter how big or small you make it, just make sure you try it

-Make about 4 cups of coffee(since this will be iced coffee, add an extra scoop of grounds when making it)

-While the coffee is still hot, add a huge spoon of sugar, and half that of brown sugar, add more or less depending on how sweet you like it, stir to make sure it doesn't just sit on the bottom

-Add a small, or thin cinnamon stick

-Let it sit until it cools, the longer it sits, the stronger and spicier the cinnamon stick will be

-Once you are ready to serve, pour over ice and add milk, creamer, or what I use, soy creamer.

-Lastly, turn on some twinkle lights, some good music and enjoy

:)

D.I.Y. #1 Home-made Holiday Wreath.

So this is my first DIY blog, but I thought it was simple and practically free, and perfect for the holiday season.

You will need:

scissors

wire(weight doesn't matter)

needle nose pliers

ribbon, or string(and paint-if you want a certain color)

lastly- branches, or twigs

I like to get all of my tools and supplies on the table, and lay everything on some scrap paper(a trader joe's bag is great). Since I didn't have ribbon, and I wanted to make a free DIY project, I choose to dye my string. I was going for a gold color, I mixed the color, added a little water and drenched the string in the paint. Once its been saturated, pull it out and hang it up to dry.

Lay out the wire in the general shape and size of your wreath. The wire is flexible so once you attach everything you can easily reshape it to the exact shape you like. Cut small pieces of the wire and wrap around the main wire. These are so once you get the branches in place, the little place keepers are already there, ready to hold everything in place!

Once you have picked out all of branches you want to use, set them all facing up. The branches I have used have an obvious upper, and under side to the leaf. Knowing this, place all of your branches facing upwards, so the shiney part of the leaf is on the top. The branch will have a natural curve separate the branches into sections, one section is for the branches that curve to the left, the other is for the ones that curve to the right.

Find the longer branches and place them towards the top of the wire, this will be the top of your wreath. The ones with less leaves are nice to use for this top section. Then find the medium branches and layer them on top of the longest ones. With the wire place holders you have already wrapped around the wire, twist these around the branches, if you have a heavier wire like I do, the needle nose pliers will help you twist and secure the stints around the branches. Continue finding and placing the appropriate branches until they meet in the middle.

Finally pull all of the branches together at the top and wrapped the ends with string, but try it with a bow :)

Enjoy!! And please post any photos of ones you make

:)